I’m going to get really honest for a minute, because I’m all about honesty.
I started this with no knowledge or know how. All I really knew was that God put this on my heart, and after a lot of pushing, I finally started it. It’s been live for roughly 6 months now.
I didn’t promote myself a lot, but I did give it a try.
Very recently I saw someone I know start their own blog. It was booming immediately.
No big promoting. No giveaways. Just people who were purely interested in the blog. It doesn’t different too much from mine so I can’t justify a topic difference. The only difference is how well liked we were in school and our friend pool differs greatly.
Because I don’t have many friends from high school, college, or from the gym or other groups I have to fight harder to be seen, to be heard. That’s okay, though, because I know in time the right people who are meant to find this, will.
I should also clarify I am extremely ecstatic for this person, I always always want to see people succeed at the things they love that big their heart joy and make them whole.
But if I told you it didn’t make me just a little envious and sad to see my numbers compared to hers, I would be lying.
I know everyone’s journey is different. Their success is different. This is one of those times that I have a good lesson to teach me to be true to my words and the way I want to live my life.
I know I’ve said it recently, but it holds so much truth. I may not be a New York Time’s best seller, I may not ever eve
Someday, if it’s meant to be, my numbers will grow. I will have a list of followers, and not just numbers but real people who read and invest time in reading this blog.
Everything takes time and work. God has it all figured out, it is only our job to trust Him and be patient as we wait for what is meant to be ours to come around to us.
Don’t compare yourself to others. All journeys are different. All end results are different. Some things are only meant to be for a season, a moment, a fleeting heartbeat.
Somedays I consider throwing in the towel. Somedays feel like I’m only talking to the air. I have to remind myself I do have readers, I do have followers. I am making a difference, no matter how small it may feel. It’s real, it’s raw, and it’s good.
Your time is coming. It may not be tomorrow or next week week, but it’s coming. God doesn’t leave us or change His mind about always being there for us. Trust and have faith. It will take you so far.